I've been stewing on writing something about my life as a missionary mom for some time now. I've debated whether or not to write it because, frankly, I'm assuming it'll probably bore all of you to tears! But I've decided to just go with it because one day I might like to look back at this blog & say, "Huh, and I thought it was hard
then!" Or I may look back & go, "So that's what life was like in ye old Niger. Glad I wrote it down!"
Because, honestly, at this point in my life I seem to be forgetting stuff rather quickly & I find myself forgetting not only where I put my sunglasses but things I really thought I'd remember like when Isabelle completed some milestone or what some of her first words were. If I haven't taken the time to write those down, they're pretty much gone forever ... amidst a lot of other stuff!
So onto the gist of this post ... I tend to find that a lot of people in the States have no clue what life is like on this side of the world & they are always curious to know what our day-to-day life looks like. Even relatives have said to me, "Now, what
exactly do you do?" As I've tried to answer this question in the usual 30 second span that people are actually tuned in & listening to me, I've realized that it is no easy answer.
My life as a mom & a missionary is a big mess most of the time. It's definitely rewarding on both ends (that's an obvious) but there are a whole lot of demands & stresses that just make it messy sometimes. So if you've got some time & would like to hear about my messy life, feel free to read along. I'm sure it'll just be a jumbled mess of words that I'll look back at & say, "What on earth was I even talking about?" But I'll give it a try nonetheless.
So I'm a full time mom, a full time wife, a full time cook & a full time missionary. Messy, huh? Like most moms in the States, the demands of being a mom are time consuming in itself ... trying to take care of kids, husband & home is a full time job. Am I right? Well add to that the demands of being a full time missionary & it sometimes gets kind of complicated. I'm not exactly a "stay at home" mom & I'm not exactly a "working" mom; and I'm not exactly a "work at home" mom. I'm a "work at home & out of the home & stay at home" mom, in a sense.
As a mom of an almost 3 year old & a 1 year old, my days are filled with playing, reading, trying to begin Isabelle on some preK material, teaching Luke how to walk, changing diapers, playing some more, reading some more, changing more diapers, feeding the kids, giving baths, kissing "owwies" ... well, you get the drift. Full time mom = full time fun!
And then I also have the privilege of being the personal chef to my family! Living in a third world country, we are not always privy to "convenience items" from Wal-Mart or even drive thru restaurants, so I also spend a good chunk of time in the kitchen preparing meals for my family ... & menu planning & grocery shopping.
As a missionary with the IMB, I am, in a way, paid by every Southern Baptist church in North America & am therefore accountable to A LOT of people! I have goals & action plans that I have to meet every month & I have to turn in an accountability report each month, too. Unfortunately "changing diapers" is not one of my goals or else I'd be way ahead of the game! So what exactly do I do in all of my spare time to complete my goals as a missionary?
Well I tell people about Jesus. How's that for an obvious answer? But being a missionary has a whole lot more to it than that though. I also am in charge of communication to our prayer partners which takes the form of writing newsletters, updates & managing our team blog. I am also in charge of handling logistics for all our incoming volunteer teams ... budget, schedule, housing, food, transportation, etc, etc. Multiply that times 10 (or more) teams a year plus long term volunteers & it equals some lengthy to do lists. I am also in charge of writing, requesting & recruiting even more volunteer teams to join our team. Can you tell we LOVE volunteers?
And that's just inside the home. Outside the home, I visit a group of women on a weekly basis & try my best to communicate to them the Gospel in a language I am not proficient at ... with one eye on them & one eye on a busy toddler. (Praise the Lord for a husband that stays home with the youngest of the brood so that my thoughts may be a little more coherent during that time). It is also my goal to visit our female believer in Ayorou once a month to continue discipling her.
So my goals & my job are somewhat involved but are simple: communication to prayer partners; coordinate volunteer teams; evangelize & disciple Songhai women; and be a mom & wife! I love that I can sometime mix business with pleasure like when I take Isabelle to work with me when I visit women. But when it comes to being a work-at-home mom & trying to answer 50 emails & work on budgets or spreadsheets with a baby & toddler in the house ... well, it just doesn't happen easily.
And I do NOT take my job as a mom to these 2 beautiful children lightly. I will NEVER EVER sacrifice my family for my job. EVER. They are my greatest ministry. And while most days are stressful & I find myself clicking away at emails long after my kids are in bed or trying to focus on reading a book with Isabelle and not be thinking about my ginormous to-do list, it's my life. It's messy & I'm not perfect at any part of it. I fail constantly as a wife, as a mom & as a missionary.
It's a complicated jumbled mess & I am always trying to find a good balance. I don't know if I ever will but I am learning more & more to not sweat it (not literally because I am literally constantly sweating profusely in this 115 degree weather!). I am learning to prioritize my time with the Lord in the mornings, my time with my husband at night, my time with my kids during the day, & the rest will just fit in there somehow. And if it doesn't? Well, I'm not gonna sweat it!
So that, in a very lengthy post, is the gist of my life as missionary mom. I wish I could fully explain all the complexities of it & how my days NEVER look the same but there's just no way! I guess you'll just have to come & visit to find out!